End of 2023 series 2

unedited text - wine night

escaped from the life - the pretense of the life you want to live

where no one else can exist but the palpating feeling of your thoughts taking you away from reality, meaning

… or are you who you want to be and pretend to live in a world full of fakeness and artificiality

bringing chaos to the boring life you want, but cannot have

rising from sadness is hard, understanding what depression means is beyond what some can comprehend - take the fucking pill, the blue pill the one which will make you feel better, take the anxiety pill, take all the pills you can

go do yoga, run, walk, bike

get out from your comfort zone

but what if none of this works, what the fuck do you do next …

you pause, you sleep for long hours or not sleep at all, because you want to absorb everything and nothing at all at the same time, trying to live and be alive

because not doing what you love kills you inside

“work” to live the life you want, but how can you live if “work” means being miserable

be grateful, don’t complain, it will not get you anywhere

the fucking positive thinking - the negative thinking